Reading My Thoughts Monday, February 2, 2009

Do you ever feel like your ipod can read your mind and seems to play just the right random shuffle of songs for your mood? I am having that day today

On another note, today is Groundhogs Day and we all know what he did! 6 more weeks of winter! What would happen if he didn’t run back into his hole and scampered up a tree or something and tomorrow spring came early? Does that ever happen? I am sure someone would blame it on Global Warming instead of the natural-born instincts of a furry critter. Although i can guarantee if i was plucked out of my stump and held aloft like this to 1000’s of screaming fans, i would run like hell back to my hole too

Happy Chinese New Year! Monday, January 26, 2009

Today marks the Chinese New year! This is exciting for all sorts of reasons.

1) it is the year of the OX and I am an OX. You are an ox too if your birthday falls in the years of 1913, 1925, 1937, 1949, 1961, 1973, 1985, 1997 and 2009. This also means that my nephew who will be born any day now will be an ox!

2) The ox, according to Chinese astrology, is the best friend you could choose. So are ox celebrities Meryl Streep, George Clooney, Dustin Hoffman, Jane Fonda and Warren Beatty good to their friends? Other ox celebrities include Meg Ryan, Bruce Springsteen, Bill Cosby, Robert Redford and Jim Carrey. President Obama is an OX and so are many of my friends.

3) People born in the Year of the Ox are patient, speak little, and inspire confidence in others. They tend, however, to be eccentric, and bigoted, and they anger easily. They have fierce tempers and although they speak little, when they do they are quite eloquent. Ox people are mentally and physically alert. Generally easy-going, they can be remarkably stubborn, and they hate to fail or be opposed. They are most compatible with Snake, Rooster, and Rat people.
I dont think this paints me as a perfect girl but I am stubborn and i do have a fiery temper! but i also talk…alot.

So happy new year! i certainly hope 2009 will be a fabulous year for all of us and especially for the OXEN

Twelfth Day of Christmas Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Today marks the official end of the Christmas Holiday for me. Growing up we always kept our Christmas decorations up until the 6th of january and had a big dinner celebration tonight. Because i am celebrating Christmas this weekend with family that i didnt get to see on the official day, i am leaving christmas up in my house for one more week! the tree still looks ok…the mantel looks a bit dry but it is all so lovely, i am glad to have this excuse. i am ignoring that the farmer’s almanac says traditions say leaving your Christmas evergreens up after epiphany is bad luck…shhhh

Twelve Drummer’s Drumming today…maybe 12 hours of rain drumming on my rooftop

Brief! Wednesday, December 3, 2008

This is sad and i have been so deliquent. I had such high hopes for my blogging in Decemeber and all i have done successfully is nap and read. i promise to be better… starting tomorrow! Right now i hear my jammies calling me to the couch for a little bad tv watching. I guess this week I am officially at rest

Happy Advent though!

The Art of Selecting the Right Eyeglass Frame Monday, June 2, 2008

 I have worn glasses since i was in the 4th grade. I have had my share of really bad frames but at 34 i am getting the hang of it…maybe. I dont like the tediousness of contacts and because i have Glaucoma, i will never be able to get lasik surgery. Realistically, i am such a weenie, i cant imagine having my eyeball pried open while they snip this and poke that. OOOOOOOOOOH! getting my pressure taken each month is traumazing enough for me. So what is left but a snazzy pair of goggles! I think new eyeglasses as as exciting as a new pair of shoes is for Carrie Bradshaw.

Issue: when a person who wears glasses for 25 years needs a new pair, how exactly is she supposed to SEE what the  new glasses look like on  without the correct lense? I am blind as a bat. i get so close to the mirror i smack my nose on it.

Solution: This time i had an idea! i brough my camera with me! I tried on several pairs of glassses and had a dear and patient friend take a picture of each pair on and then i put on my real glasses to view the results. Dear GOD, my favorite pair in the rack make me look like a bozo. so this was a highly effective plan. I think i found a great pair. In the meantime i thought you would get a kick out of my other options…i think i chose well dont you?

 

  nuf said

 Not Horrible but a bit square

 sing it with me, I want to be an Airborne Ranger

 i think these make me look like woody Allen

 I look like that nervous person at a funeral who doesnt know whether to cry or laugh

 Apparently these just pissed me off

And the lucky winners are…

   just in time for France…sigh

Olivia Louise Friday, April 25, 2008

Life can be pretty overwhelming. just the day to day functioning we do sometimes is plenty to keep us busy…and then something makes us stop and take pause. I like to think that i stop and take pause at the smallest of details but realistically I know i miss millions of details each day.

Then something really huge happens that forces us to stop and pause. today for me that was my friend erica’s new baby. Now Erica and i have known each other since we were 3 years old. together we have experienced death, sorrow, disappointment, marriage, love, happiness, and now birth. That is a lot! I mean some people never experience half of this stuff by the time they are 50. But we are blessed with the ups and the downs and now Erica and her husband Ryan are blessed with a new daughter; Welcome to the world Olivia. I hope all of your dreams come true and you discover a detail that no one has ever witnessed before. You will always be my niece because your mama will always be my sister.

isnt she gorgeous!!

and this was the cutie blanket i made for Olivia

Symphony no 2 in E minor, Op. 27 by Sergei Rachmaninov Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I dont know if or how a person can relate to this because it is so personal but i was just hit like a bolt of lightening with a memory. The most beautiful and sad memory a girl can have. My mother was very sick, she had terminal cancer. I was dealing with it as best i could and trying to make sense of it all. She was a shell of the person she had once been but to me she was still more beautiful then any person who had walked this earth. It had to be Spring because the sun was just beginning to warm the new buds on the trees and we were so blessed with glorious weather for days on end. I remember she was lying in her bed, where she had been confined for at least a month. She seemed blissfully at peace but i knew she was also dealing with demons of the likes we cant imagine. This was a woman who surrounded herself with beauty and passion. She played the piano, taught others, designed and produced magical art. She was such the essence of life and here she was trapped in a bed in a rose pink room in a rehabilitaion home, on hospice and couldnt even move her fingers to communicate, let alone play the piano. I remember it was a sunny day, i was running around in and out and i seem to recall that she was tired but sad to see me go. The sun was lit in her room and blanketed the masses of flowers and cards around her in warmth. I asked if she wanted me to put on some music and she did. So i put on her favorite cd. she had been obsessed with it for months, it drew her in a gave her a place of peace i remember seeing her at home, battling unknown struggles with her memories and thoughts and listening to this same cd with her eyes closed and a smile so peaceful on her face. I knew she was somewhere else. So that day i put on that cd and she closed her eyes and smiled and i closed the door and left with that constant twinge of guilt muddled with panic and grief.

I haven’t been able to listen to that piece of music in almost 5 years. I had a friend put in on once not knowing what it was and i broke down and started to sob immediately. It was like something took me over. I scared him to death and then he started to cry when i told him why. So today as i near a 5 year mark without my mother, i am driving back to work from lunch listening to the classical station and this piece of music comes on. It was so beautiful to me and i couldnt quite place it. It jsut washed over me and made me so peaceful. I immediately had visions of an old Audrey Hepburn movie and love lost and beautiful dresses and gentlemen with that glimmer in their eye and simpler times. I dont even know why. I have almost successfully listen to it now for the first time. it truly is an amazing piece of music, although i still need a box of tissues

words to process Friday, March 7, 2008

A dear friend of mine sent me this link this morning. I knew it would be interesting because everything he sends me is interesting but this was special. I wanted to place it somewhere so i could go back and listen to it again sometimes and also i wanted to share it with anyone out there who comes across my site.

i hope that one day i can live up to these words with my own family. Enjoy!

http://glumbert.com/wii/view.php?name=lastadvice